Journal

I had lunch with a friend, today. A woman I both appreciate and admire. Intelligence, warmth, compassion, humour and a depth of careing that sometimes overwhelms even her, and space - physical, emotional, verbal, etc. - becomes the buffer that allows for a regained stabiity. It was good. Although we don't see each other often, it's clear to me that we ... Continue Reading >>

Life is good! It’s filled with opportunity, potential and the sheer joy of allowing myself to live fully in the moment of my own experience…to embrace my emerging future, wherever it may lead. Whatever unfolds in my day, I know that I am its creator and that its gift to me is my own evolution. I’ve learned that no matter what it may appear to be about, ... Continue Reading >>

I can no longer keep them separate. For me, conversations about leadership cannot go beyond what I already know without reminding myself that all meaning is context dependent. Change the context and the meaning changes all by itself. Our existing notions of and explorations of ‘leadership’ all occur in a context set decades ago and is no longer questioned. ... Continue Reading >>

I had an amazing conversation today with a friend/colleague from another city. He’s in an MBA program and is exploring leadership and – lucky me! – I got to be on his short list of people to talk with about notions of leadership. During the hour or so that we spent in conversation, there were all kinds of notions that just popped into my awareness as we ... Continue Reading >>

The IPCC (Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change) has tabled its findings. According to CNN:“The debate on global warming is over. That's the ultimate message from the report released in Paris today by the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC), the U.N. body of leading researchers charged with analyzing climate science and producing the final ... Continue Reading >>

Can it be? The month of January is already gone! How did that happen….and where did it all go? Lately, it seems that I take a breath and when I exhale, I discover that a week has gone by. I am noticing acceleration in many ways and at many levels. As much as I experience today as a flat kind of day, these moments are not unfamiliar to me. Somewhere in ... Continue Reading >>

It would seem that Lori, Anne and I are in some kind of mutually-expanding dance, today. For me, it begins as believing in myself...my Self...no matter what, and leads to BEING MySelf no matter what. When I am clear that I AM, what is there to believe in? It boils down to one single expression: ENGAGEOver the years, I've discovered that it's easy for me to ... Continue Reading >>

Yesterday, I spent much of my day with a small group of women who are determined to live their own lives – fully and now! This second offering of the new half-day event that I’ve called ‘Women Awakening’ has already morphed into something very different from the December event; and from yesterday, I can feel the shifts already in flow for the next one. It ... Continue Reading >>

I’m in my car heading for the office when all of a sudden it occurs to me why so many women don’t live the lives they desire. They keep trying to do it alone. I’ve often said that women are culturally conditioned to be the caretakers of the relationships while men are culturally conditioned to be the caretakers of the tasks. Women take care of people – men ... Continue Reading >>

I’ve noticed lately, on my drives to and from the office, lots of talk on radio about ‘fighting’ disease and ‘battling with’ disease. The frequency of it has startled me, not only in the references to our need to fight for health but also in the seemingly entrenched view that fighting is indeed, essential to wellness.That is not my experience. Over the 20+ ... Continue Reading >>

In my world, it’s all about metaphors in a holographic universe. My very life itself is a metaphor for how I live. I sometimes wonder: am I paying attention? Today, I spoke with a close friend who is being pursued relentlessly by chaos in her life. We talk… she ponders… and I wonder: where am I being relentlessly pursued by chaos in my life? It may not ... Continue Reading >>

Today, I am very aware of an impending shift in being 'mother'. My sons have gone for the week, eagerly and happily looking forward to their holiday in the Caribbean with their father, sisters and grandmother. Much laughter as we drove to the rendez-vous point to gather for the limo ride to the airport.I have no memory of my sons being away without me. ... Continue Reading >>

Today, I got into a conversation about truth. Knowing the truth. Telling the truth. Being willing to act on the truth. On the surface, a seemingly simple and straightforward conversation. But there is always more….We think we’re telling the truth when what we say is accurate. I find myself wondering: how often do we tell the truth by saying things ... Continue Reading >>

For me, it’s really not complicated: I am the lifeforce/godforce in expression in a physical universe – and so is everyone else. I am the expression of Life, itself, and not a vessel for it or a conduit for it. I am IT. Why is it so difficult for us to get this one?Memories of so many programs… putting my hands under the fabric covering the table top and ... Continue Reading >>

I’ve been distracted lately…busily living my life….just letting thoughts drift in and out… waiting to be enticed by some compelling new insight that will draw me to the keyboard. It seems that while I’m waiting, living happens. I find myself in another city, traveling with a very dear friend whose family member is struggling with ‘addiction’. We journey ... Continue Reading >>

Yesterday, I watched a PBS show on China From the Inside – Women of the Country. Staggering numbers: 622 million women in China; highest suicide rate of women in the world; 150,000 women take their lives every year, with another 1.8 million doing their best but not succeeding in ending their lives. As I watched, I thought about my life as a woman. I ... Continue Reading >>

There is a future emerging that the vast majority of us are oblivious to. That we are so, does not mean that it is not happening and that it will not continue to unfold. I recently received notice of an interview with Gregg Braden exploring what Gregg has to say about the current and historical pole shifts and their implications. For some of us, this ... Continue Reading >>

Nick had a rough night. He’s 20 and had his first experience with being helpless, despite his strength, courage, integrity and willingness to assist. Even with almost two years of security work behind him, he was not prepared (can we ever be?) for his first experience of standing in the midst of the physical, emotional and spiritual stench of poverty, ... Continue Reading >>

I read Anne’s blog entry for today and did so with sheer delight!I’ve had the good fortune to spend time with Anne along her journey of Self-discovery. During the women’s writing retreat (Whispers from Within), Anne discovered how much she had to say and how beautifully and powerfully she could say it. Today, as I read her blog entry, I laughed out loud at ... Continue Reading >>

Sometimes, it just looks to me like things are falling apart.How it starts seems to be connected in some way to the degree to which I believe I need to know. The greater my need to know, the more I find myself swamped in accurate but nonetheless essentially useless details. I know a lot – but I haven’t a clue about what’s meaningful.In this moment, that’s ... Continue Reading >>

Big words. Complex and maybe not complicated. The way I see it: * Evolution, consciousness….both are nominalizations. The experience of these things – our ability to LIVE them and not just talk about them and philosophize about them - depends on the body, since the only place where experience can take place is in the body. * Trying to achieve these ... Continue Reading >>

I've decided that it's time for me to press the edges on what's possible. I know that the body is a reflection of the structure of our own thinking; and that the body is always a living expression of a time lag between any thought and the tissue response that it creates. Thought (or energy) shapes tissue (or matter), with the density of tissue always ... Continue Reading >>

I can’t remember the first time I read one of David Icke’s books – that’s how long ago it was. I was struck by his incredible capacity for detail, and the way in which he documented his findings. Although his approach was somewhat different, what he wrote, in some way, felt ‘right’. To this day, he is considered an extremely controversial speaker.David ... Continue Reading >>

Boxing Day. It’s indeed a peaceful day for me. No rushing around; no anticipation of anything, just a beautiful, quiet day unfolding. Music fills the house with a variety of renderings of the Christmas classics. Who would have thought that Jingle Bells could have such a variety of offerings? Solo artists, duets and groups; old stuff and new stuff; all ... Continue Reading >>

Soon, another year will come to a close. It has been an amazing one for me, with so much unfolding, quickly, over such a short period of time. This year has proven to me that I am not my stories – about myself or about anyone or anything else. The quality of my life lives in each breath, one at a time. When I trust that, life is full and rich and ... Continue Reading >>

Every now and then, I wonder….how much knowledge has been lost over the eons of r/evolving civilizations? How many times have we, quite literally, reinvented the wheel? What was in the texts, so precious to those who tended them, in the massive library in Alexandria, burned to the ground and lost to us all forever? What of the missing information from texts ... Continue Reading >>

Hmm…the words are barely nestled into the blog when the notion of ‘male bashing’ surfaces. Is that what I’m doing? Is that what others will see if/when they choose to read what I have written about myself….about my quiet truth? For whatever reason, as I consider these thoughts, I am pulled to seek out Ray Landry’s blog ... Continue Reading >>

Every day, I discover more of what is ‘real’ for me…what is deeply meaningful.I just spent five days (Whispers from Within: Women’s Writing Retreat) with women who were committed to discovering how to listen to the whispers inside themselves. The sounds of who we are that are drowned out by the dull, relentless droning of our daily lives – all the shoulds ... Continue Reading >>

They come for a variety of reasons, bringing with them things unfinished as well as things not yet begun. But nonetheless, they come.They arrive, each with their own agenda – some filled with specifics and others totally unformed, each palpably potent in their intention. And nonetheless, they come. It begins with what it would seem that women do best: we ... Continue Reading >>

I love movies – and I love science fiction. To me, it is less science fiction and much more science faction. The difference is just a matter of elapsed time.Human beings and androids. Each so sure of what they are and so definite in their knowing that they are separate, and that one is not the other. I know that we think we know what a human being is. ... Continue Reading >>

As I move through the women’s writing retreat (Whispers from Within), I am mindful of how powerful women are when they wake up! This journey has been an interesting one as it has no agenda, no pre-requisites and no defined outcome other than one of discovery and waking up to the truth of our own potential. Along the way, I’ve spoken frequently of Ervin ... Continue Reading >>

I’ve now watched this DVD for the third time. Each time, I am aware of the information offered and the magnitude of its implications. Even more, I am aware of Al Gore.As I watch, I am mindful that the information has been seen in other places at other times. What makes it different THIS time is Al Gore. What makes it possible for us to hear it this time, ... Continue Reading >>

I can’t remember what triggered it or at what point in the process it began. I only know that at some point, as I lay on my back on the massage table, thoughts of my own mortality drifted into my awareness. It was a peaceful sensation, making it possible for me to be still and relax, and continue to allow whatever that was to drift through my body.Snippets ... Continue Reading >>

"I am not a human being having a spiritual experience – I am a spiritual being having a human experience." Who said that? Wayne Dyer comes to mind. (I really like Wayne Dyer’s work. He’s on my ‘people to meet and hang out with in conversation’ short list. He’s been around a long time and although we’ve never met, he feels like ‘good people’ to me.) ... Continue Reading >>

I’ve discovered something: once awake, sleep has little appeal. And I’m mindful of that at all levels of thinking – from the physical to the ‘emotional’ and ‘mental’…to the spiritual.Once awake, sleep holds no interest. That is true in the ‘real’ world and is also true in the world of ‘energy’. We hold sleep as essential to healthy rhythms of physical ... Continue Reading >>

…and in that dream, I experienced an event that was stunning and deeply painful to me. In that same dream, someone I trust was telling me that I did not see what I saw, hear what I heard….and I did not know what I know. I awakened from that dream, startled by the sense of its reality; and feeling pressure in my head and in my chest.Even as I pondered the ... Continue Reading >>

…has a life of its own.Day 5 of RIA; Day 3 of ITS. As one day unfolds into the next, I am aware of how it has become so much more than it was.There is an acceleration and an expansion that I don’t yet know how to put words to. How I know it’s there is from what I witness in the movement of the women in the room; in how far they go and how easily they get ... Continue Reading >>

Wherever 25 or more women gather, I will to go them – including experiences of Women Awakening and/or Decloaking.Until now, I’ve invited women to step into scheduled programs. My experience of yesterday, with the Women’s Network of Ottawa, awakened me to the realization that the hunger for more and the willingness to engage is far more than I had noticed. ... Continue Reading >>

It occurred to me yesterday that some time had passed since last writing in this blog. It’s not that I have not had thoughts, or that I have not ‘done’ things, it’s that I was not called to share them. To me, those moments felt ‘over’ and ‘gone’, and as much as I was fully engaged in them in the moment, they also felt ‘done’. Once complete, I felt gratified ... Continue Reading >>

I think I started putting streaks in my hair when I was 20. I’m 56. That’s 36 years of not knowing what color my own hair is! So, for whatever reason, the impulse moved and I chose to pay attention to it – and I decided it was time for me to know what color my hair really is.To accomplish this task, I had to learn to just let go. Do nothing. Invite and ... Continue Reading >>

Last night, I joined about 150 other women to hear Meg Wheatley on her “Women’s Leadership Revival Tour”. I like that woman. Long an admirer of her work, I experienced her to be very awake and highly contagious! She’s smart, insightful and courageous. She’s also obviously deeply caring and compassionate. Although brief, her presentation offered up a ... Continue Reading >>

I did it again. Just when I thought I was getting over myself, I made the mistake of picking up today’s edition of The Ottawa Citize”. In the front section (always where you’ll find the most irritating, annoying and frightening events of the world!) is a piece called “Tots on the couch” – declaring that ‘Children as young as a few months are being taken ... Continue Reading >>

I think I’m going to give up listening to talk radio. Not only is it hard to hum along, it leaves me wondering…..what the hell are we doing?????Today, my little rant is courtesy of the CBC and today’s program on the sale of human beings. Particularly women and children are being ‘trafficked’ for the sex trade – and Canada has a less-than-stellar record in ... Continue Reading >>

Last week, I got a note from someone who was profoundly awakened by the process of putting her attention at the base of her spine…what I’ve created as the ‘White Feather’ meditation (for lack of any other recognized language). It keeps drifting in and out of my awareness, so I’m beginning to pay attention and have decided to share it here. We spend so much ... Continue Reading >>

I continue to have ‘stuff’ (technical term!) roll around inside me re these notions of emerging expressions of leadership by women. Notions of recognizing that ‘leadership’ is not an action - it's a result. Ideas that press for a recognition that before women will be willing to decloak on the genius that is unique to them and engage their world ... Continue Reading >>

Phonological ambiguity has always captured my interest. In this case, what does 'executing' mean? Will this 'executing' of the future bring something to an end? Or will it engage the beginning? These thoughts are on my mind as I return from three days at Oceanstone, at the Huna Retreat. I am experiencing an ever-increasing clarity of the connection ... Continue Reading >>

Strange…..My intention in starting this blog was to create space – big space, safe space - within which to engage new thinking about leadership/leading/leaders, among other things. For some strange reason, I’ve been getting emails from folks saying that they can’t seem to post comments.Hmmm… (she says, pondering her holodeck) isn’t that interesting! My ... Continue Reading >>

It’s been a busy week-end. And given my belief that my life is a holodeck, I am paying attention to what I have manifested and how it all links together. This week-end I had the honour of being part of not one but two ‘unveilings’ of contributing authors to the Sekhmet Rising book project. Unlike book signings or readings, these are opportunities created ... Continue Reading >>

Another glorious day of spending time in conversation with women. One I have known for a long time; the other two are new to me. As we engaged, it became clear to me that we will come to know each other much better. I see it in all of them – this immense desire to live fully and engage meaningfully. As I listen to them speak, behind their words I hear a ... Continue Reading >>

I’m feeling agitated today. I’ve come to learn over the years that this state of agitation – of body and mind – is often the precursor to some new insight…to some startling change in how I experience myself and subsequently, how I move through my world. I’ve also learned over the years that there is nothing for me to do about this, or with this, other than ... Continue Reading >>

I’m noticing how every day brings with it yet another insight or enquiry into my own thoughts about women and leadership. Such an awareness continues to demonstrate to me how my life is indeed, unfolding on the holodeck I design; and how my (now) much larger and more intense intention is calling to itself moments of opportunity for discovery.Take today’s ... Continue Reading >>

This ‘women and leadership’ conversation continues to roll around in my own thoughts, as well as appear regularly in my conversations with other women. What this tells me is that I’m on the right track, for my own evolution. Also, it seems that (given it’s a holographic universe) when I evolve, so do all those with whom I come in contact. Funny, that….. ... Continue Reading >>

I continue to let ideas roll around inside me. Perhaps less ‘ideas’ and much more a seemingly random stream of thoughts about what I want to create here - in this space that opens around this blog.I am very mindful that what I flow into this Space will indeed, manifest my reality. I am also mindful that manifestation is a spiral, and at the end of its ... Continue Reading >>

I'm a big believer in living what I offer up for others to live. I really do believe that I live in a holographic universe; that all in my experience is of my own creation; and that the people I call into my experience are, in some way, an expression of some aspect of my own consciousness.Take my drive in to the office today, for example.I was boppin' along, ... Continue Reading >>