I am all over the map! Not a day goes by that I am not mindful of the degree to which my life is unscripted… without rituals and routines… a constant invitation for me to stop and wonder: how does the godforce that I AM choose to live – in this day, in this moment, in this breath? Without exception, the moment always comes with a choice to be made.
It is October, and I am mindful of 2008 coming to a close. I am also mindful of the intense pressure I feel inside myself to close loops… to bring cycles to completion before I move forward into 2009. Beginning in January 2006, these last two years and 9 months have been moving toward the full expression of Intention 2009 – not like I knew that in January 06 anymore than I knew when I wrote ‘Fully Alive’ that it would be the first book in a trilogy. In January 2006 I did not yet know what I know today. How could I? This ’emerging future’ was not yet mine to know in reason and logic, but lived fully as a sensory cue in my body. Unlike now, in that moment I still did not know what an emerging future was! But what I did know – instinctively and without hesitation – was to trust what moved inside me, knowing that it would lead me to where I needed to go. And here I am!
Tomorrow, I leave for Oceanstone and another Emerging Futures: Entrepreneurial Women retreat. This will be my third – with each more powerful and moving more quickly than the last! As one woman has said: ‘Every time, I leave this conversation and am catapulted forward in my life!’ I know what she means – it happens that way for me, too. It is beyond leaps and, for me, defies explanation.
I am driven to complete projects that I began earlier in the year. ‘Decloaking’ 20-CD set is almost done. There will be a multi-CD set on CODE Model Coaching. There will be another on WEL:Systems:NLP. There are several new ‘Living WELness’ 70-minute conversations coming on, including one on Depression, one on Empty Nesters and one on Parenting. I know that some conversations must come to a close in order to make way for new ones…. more powerful ones… that stand in a different place. From there, a new journey is begun.
Not a moment passes that I am not mindful of vibration. The vibration that I am and that you are. The vibration of the sound of my ‘being’ and the sound of yours. The vibration that penetrates, reshapes and transforms. I am mindful of the vibration of voice – on CD’s, on podcasts and on internet radio. I am aware of the need to reach much further, connect and engage. I know that so many are seeking and not finding – not because they can’t or are not up to it, but because they keeping looking for what they’ve lost under the convenient streetlight… when what is precious to them was lost far from where convenience will allow it to be found.
It is convenient to seek through the intellect. That is a process we have been taught to trust and, supposedly understand. It is less convenient to discover that this is one search where the intellect will not serve us; and that we must surrender the intellect to the body and allow it to lead. No one teaches us how to do THAT! And yet, that is the only way to find what we seek.
I know what I say often flies in the face of so-called conventional wisdom. I also know : it works.
Breathing is good….