“When I am ‘in’ my mind, it cannot be hacked. When I am ‘out’ of my mind, some other can easily mimic the sound of my own voice and leave me thinking that I occupy that territory.”
It has been an interesting time.
On December 12th, I broke a bone in my right shoulder. In that instant, movement became excruciatingly painful, resulting in my arm…and ultimately, my entire body… being immobilized. In some unapologetic way, the Universe pushed the STOP button on my life.
What had always been habituated and mindless became impossible as pain flooded the senses and reminded me to stop… take a breath…. and let go. It became impossible – instantly and extensively – to just repeat what I knew.
Being right-handed, everything now required a mindful consideration. I found myself unable to do the simplest of things: drive my car, wash my hair, settle in comfortably with my morning coffee. Every activity required planning, effort and a robust determination that previously, had demanded of me nothing more than the intent. The simple joy of going to bed at night was now replaced with sleeping, upright, in a chair to ensure that my arm would not be ‘compromised’ by body movement or the mindless application of weight or an unintended turn.
As my body accepted these new-found limitations, my mind expanded. Given that I choose to live through The CODE Model™ as a framework for my existence, metaphors began to come into my awareness that allowed me to embrace complexity without it needing to be complicated. The further I allowed mySelf to move out from the moment that seemed to have taken my body hostage, the greater my sense of deep connection to the stream of information that made it possible for me to know the genius of it all, for my own evolution. The message was clear: let go.
Let go… of doing what I knew how to do so well, just because I knew how to do it. Let go… of mindlessly engaging, even though continuing to do so might prove useful or meaningful to others. Let go… of seeking to see the bigger picture – the larger context for existence – and just relax into the moment. That singular moment of deep, arching and searing pain was nothing more than the ‘beep’ of awakening that I now recognize as having been essential. That is what it took for me to notice.
We get good at doing what we do. We become adept at and effortless in our habits of body and of mind. Sometimes, to expand my mind, my body must first, collapse. At least, for me… this time… that’s the path I found myself on. Although, in hindsight, I might well have found an easier way, I know that at some level the essential nature of this pause was necessary. In my life, there are no accidents.
And now, I am changed.
At the level of my body, I have become adept at living my life through my left hand. Even though physiotherapy now demands that I invite my right arm back into my day-to-day living, I am aware how effortlessly I am drawn to continue to use my left hand. Quite amazing how easily we form new habits; and how easily those new habits eliminate the need to live mindfully.
At the level of mind, I am aware: the only person who can change my mind is me. Only I can choose that…can do that… and it can only be done from the inside, out. No external force or pressure will ‘break’ my stream of mind unless and until I say ‘yes’ and invite it into my existing structure of reality. When I am ‘in’ my mind, it cannot be hacked. When I am ‘out’ of my mind, some other can easily mimic the sound of my own voice and leave me thinking that I occupy that territory. Such a ruse can only take place when I have allowed myself to have my mind engage from the same strategies that my body so easily embraces: habits and mindless repetition.
I am changed. In so many significant and deeply meaningful ways, I don’t care. Truth is: not caring is a far more powerful place for me to stand, in the shaping of my own reality.
I will keep you posted on how it continues to unfold. For now, I only know that what has long been, no longer is. In this moment, I don’t know where that will take me. And I also know that in this moment, I am fully awake, aware and present to whatever presents.
Immobilized, no more.
Eloquently written, Louise. And welcome to the realm of 5th Dimension (5D) living where there is a new structure of reality.
The shift on Earth began in 2015. There is a group here in Nova Scotia that have already made the transition. They are courageously, with open heart-spaces, inviting others who want to transition forward gracefully into this new way of being.
Their assistance is magnificent. Their connectedness is expanding, now, as others like myself accept their invitation and assistance. I transitioned about a month ago.
I, like you, am now forever changed; fully awake, aware and present to whatever presents. In a way a neutral, expansive, accepting, all loving space where I can BE ME and the others can BE THEMSELVES. WE CO-EXIST in a peaceful, robust, harmonic balance with each other at our optimally chosen high-energy frequencies. And as I shape my own new reality in the 5D realm, I will also be curious to learn how your new reality unfolds.
Kind regards,
Kevin
Thank you for making the time to share your experience – much appreciated.
And the journey continues! 😎
Louise,
The parallels are amazing as I watched Richard experience his lack of mobility in his shoulder and all that brought up with him and with us.
What really connected with me is your not caring and this feels like a truth for me n a whole new realm…..letting go of expectations, outcomes, others’ opinions, societal norms etc. And it feels freeing and beautiful inside!
XOXO
Thank you, Karey, for sharing that moment. What I had not included in the original post were my own insights with regard to the shoulder ‘injury’. I add them below in the event they can provoke some insight.
“As I write, I am fully mindful of the broken ball joint in my shoulder. My right shoulder; both Spear side and my dominant side. CODE Model™ that! This recent injury has required that I stop… and perceive from a different place and through different eyes…. and consider the larger potential that circles the rim of my current expression of consciousness.
I am aware that the ‘force’ of movement in the arm comes from the shoulder. The power in a punch comes from the mass of the body, transferred through the shoulder into the delivery channel of, ultimately, the fist.
No shoulder – no power.
That it is the ball joint…. the end of the humerus that fits into/nestles into the (familiar and long-paired) socket of the shoulder/scapula. There is a chunk of bone (the densest matter in the device of the body) that has separated completely from its long-standing form. A fit is no longer possible. I am no longer whole, in an historical and habituated way.
There are no accidents in my Universe. I have had many weeks to do nothing…unable to do anything… but explore the CODE Model truths that my body expresses. Insights and discovery, as always, abound!”
I am also mindful of the position of the shoulder relative to 4th (culturally conditioned beliefs/values/attitudes) and 5th (Choice point/voice/revealing the inside of me to the outside world). Culturally conditioned self becomes toxic when a perpetually-evolving Self is seeking to make its presence known/felt.
I look forward to crossing paths at Montebello! 🙂
You always inspire me.
And you, me. Your work with others awakens potential and transforms lives. With you, compassion and depth of caring always take the lead. Does it get any better than that? 🙂