As we were approaching the end of our evening exploration, I shared with a small group of women my deep and vast sense of urgency. It caught me off guard when one of the women spoke to that notion of what I was calling ‘urgency’ in words that referred to ‘panic’ and ‘terror’. It was a great opportunity for me to stop… take a breath… and revisit: just what do I mean by urgency?
Certainly, not that! Despite what I hold to be the great potential of massive change to reshape reality, I have no sense of panic or terror – and I do have a great sense of urgency.
Urgency! To get on with it; to engage the moment, fully and with 100% of my attention. Urgency, to stay mindful and present; connected to my own internal truth as the external truths of myriad others hold the potential to penetrate and take the lead on the deeply personal journey of my life. Urgency, to stop messing around at the edges and instead, dive into the middle of my own turmoil and resistance to dare.
Urgency! To live… engage!… and express fully all that moves inside me. Being both willing and able to notice that on the holodeck of my experience, nothing presents that is not intended to awaken me to the ‘more’ that I already am – and have not yet noticed.
Urgency! To take the breath that presents in the moment and not try to pass it by and avoid its potent revelations. To breathe and relax and let go… into the unknown of my safe and expansive Universe, that I might better know more of ME to be its living expression.
Urgency! To say what’s on my mind, in the moment that it moves… and not seek to wait for the ‘right’ time or the ‘optimal’ time or the ‘best’ time… knowing that the passage of time is the unfolding of my life; choosing to live fully right here/right now, rather than wait for the next invitation to do so.
In the urgency of my being, there is no good/bad, right/wrong – there is only the power of potential and the grace of opportunity, leaving me to determine how much or how little of each, I might embrace.
For me, urgency is a measure of the intensity of my great desire to LIVE! It recognizes that life is all about living – not thinking about living; and it reminds me that the only moment that I can know, for sure, will be mine is THIS one. What do I intend to do with it? Who do I intend to allow myself to become, from it? If not now, then when?
In my 30+ years of engaging with women, I notice that for many there is an unquenchable thirst for yet one more conversation before choosing to commit to embracing a new reality – and doing what it takes to breathe life into its expression. For many, this has become a deadly and self-sabotaging strategy that makes room for waving the flag of a deep longing for change… constantly fed by the illusion of ‘doing things’ for its embrace… while remaining steadfast in the safety of their victimhood. As one brilliant woman once said: “I really, really want things to be different… but I don’t want too much to change!” Sound like anyone you might know?
After decades of living for and from my own evolution by intention, I have come to accept: the only way to get on with it is to get on with it.
“The only way to get on with it is to get on with it.” It took me YEARS to grok what this statement ACTUALLY means … what it means to fully trust that process of integrating and letting go so I get on with what MATTERS TO ME.
It took such immense resistance to trust that this is simply TRUE. “The struggle is real” everyone says. And on some level, that is true …because we hold it as such.
In my now 5 years of working with women from this paradigm, I have come to see this for myself –and it s one of the things that pisses people off the most. Yet, as I’ve come to discover, once accepted, it frees them, too.
I have a deep sense of urgency to get on with it — to keep creating that which is meaningful to me and share it freely, without expectation of another. If I wanted to be rich and famous, I know how to do that. I know the formula now. But that’s not what I want.
What I desire is to live a life of creative freedom, in conversations that empower and compel each of us to ‘get on with it’.
Thank you for this message today… so many women DIE before they say what they mean and mean what they say. And, we both know, there are many ways to die…
It takes great courage to choose life, and engage it to it’s full potential! All I know is, I am up for the ride …
This paragraph is EVERYTHING — “urgency is a measure of the intensity of my great desire to LIVE! It recognizes that life is all about living – not thinking about living; and it reminds me that the only moment that I can know, for sure, will be mine is THIS one. What do I intend to do with it? Who do I intend to allow myself to become, from it? If not now, then when?”
Thank you, Louise. Always.