It happened on Saturday and has been rumbling around inside me since then. A seemingly harmless Valentine’s Day breakfast among friends – and my life is changed.
I arrived with a sense of agitation, having spent about 20 hours editing the soon-to-be ready for production, multi-CD set on ‘CODE Model Coaching™ – Part 2: The Awakened Self’. Having listened to that material, over and over again, I was feeling edgy and intense – just like the material. In particular, the section on ‘decloaking’, exploring the distinction in ‘being silenced’ and ‘being silent’ was still with me.
By the time I got there, I was wound pretty tight and looking for… something!… anything!…. meaningful to engage. I felt the need for something dense and intense… something I could sink my teeth into! I was not disappointed as we settled in with bagels and coffee and great conversation.
Two of the women had attended the press conference in Ottawa for the Catlin Arctic Survey (see previous posts) expedition about to launch to the North Pole. After the official part, they had returned with the group to their hotel and spent several hours in conversation about climate change, melting glaciers, going green, etc…. all the things I love to explore… with the very folks who are living it! I wish I could have been there. I was riveted as they shared their experience with all of us, eager to hear more.
We talked about insights and discoveries of all kinds. We talked about change and evolution and transformation. We talked about courage and coming face-to-face with ourselves. It was so easy and effortless, with thoughts flowing into each other, moving seamlessly and paving the way for the next. And in one of those moments, it was as if I had left my body and was drifting above myself, watching it all unfold.
In that instant, it was as if I had removed my Self from this body, making it possible for the body to empty in some way; and when I re-entered, things had changed.
I realized that I have let go. Not that I want to let go or that I should let go… I have just let go. It is done. And I know it will translate to many and varied things in my ‘real’/physical world.
I have let go of ‘Decloaking’, soon to be followed by ‘Engaging’. It is time for me to move on. Those who now choose to take this journey will be in the awakening presence of powerful women like Sheila, Amy, Susan and others to come.
I have let go of my time in the Maritimes. I have cancelled my trip to Oceanstone in May and will not be returning to that part of the world for at least the next two years. I have met many wonderful women there and I know they will be in good hands with Amy and others.
I have let go of Hawaii. I can’t believe it! It is as if it has softly slipped into ‘what was’ and I no longer hear the siren call to be there. My heart is full with all that it has been for me and, in many ways, always will be. There will always be flashes… moments of recall when I feel the heat of the sun on my skin… when in a nano-second I know that I”m there. And for now, it is no longer with me.
I have let go of traveling far and wandering. For whatever reason, I am called to be here… to be with and around and near my family. I am eager to fill the Program Room in Kanata with women; to have the Program Room teeming with women seeking to reclaim themselves; seeking to carve out their own path as they find the courage to redesign their lives, fully expressing the majesty of who they are.
I am mindful of the great intensity I carry to manifest. I am mindful of finding and connecting with those who are already creating their world, that we might co-create in the much larger Space of our collective Selves.. and be delighted by what we discover. I am very clear: the currency of consciousness is already shaping my world.
The 6-day ‘Manifesting a Meaningful Life’ experience is THE conversation that lights me up! Big! Bold! Boundless and formless! Edgy, provocative, compelling… not because it’s a pathway but because it’s the unsettled, feral essence of our potential being. It is not that we move through those conversations, it is more that we trek… and climb the rock faces that beckon… and make our way through the underwater caves, in the dark… with nothing but our inner truth to lead the way. For me, it has become a living expression of The Great Adventure that my life is! My life is destined to have so many more, of these!
In my experience of it, density and intensity are essential to accelerating manifestation. To be able to hold focus without distraction; to be able to coalesce all of the living force that I AM to flow through the energetic framework of the intention held by my body (not my intellect) – by the device that is directly connected to the Signal of Self – is what it takes.
It has always puzzled me how so many are troubled by intensity and feel the need to ‘tone it down’ or ‘ease up ‘ or ‘lighten up!’. It has puzzled me how there seems to be something wrong or inappropriate about very quickly moving an idea into expression in the physical world, often having to slow down and surrender it to the intellect so that others might track its birth into the physical. In this moment, I remember the Sekhmet Rising book project – 3 months almost to the day, from original idea to books in the lobby! Who would have thought that I could have an idea, attract 17 women to it, capture contributions, edit them, design a cover, engage production and have a final (wonderful! ) product in 90 days. And so, it happened and I believe could happen again in record time. It manifests first in the domain of thought and then quickly flows – if we allow it.
I know that I am different. I know that as I move forward, from this day, new expressions are waiting eagerly and impatiently to unfold. This is the year of Intention 2009 – the year that a WEL-Systems® perspective becomes accessible to the world. It is the year that those whose lives are shaped by this paradigm ‘come out of the closet’ and reveal how their lives have become magic, that yours may become magic, too.
Imagine – all that from bagels and coffee… and the company of good friends.
Breathing is good….
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