My conversations with Dean Walker of The Poetry of Predicament podcast always open doors to my own as-yet unexpressed thinking. This one proved particularly potent for me.
For some time, I have had no interest in speaking, blogging or even journaling. Every thought I have seems to be one that I’ve had so many times before. As I listened to the podcast today, I realized that I am struggling to find the words to define what has become true for me. The following thoughts are (so far) the closest I have come.
- In the turmoil of our current shared predicament, one could say we no longer know where we are, what we’re doing or where we’re going. Yet in truth, I think we know intuitively that we need to move on; that where we once were, no longer exists; and that to pretend otherwise will be our demise.
- I think we know – and we don’t like what we know (denial) so we pretend that we remain confused and unsure. We know that no matter what we do, we can’t go back because there is no ‘back’ to go to! We have already recognized that our habits no longer have value and yet we keep trying to live them (even out of context of where those habits might have proven useful) to bring ourselves some comfort that we can and do know, and will figure it out. What looms is the unspoken realization that without inner evolution, there is no evolution outside of us.
- Our inability to trust ourselves results in our inability to trust that we do know, even though we have no idea how that ‘knowing’ translates to ‘doing’.
- If we can accept that we don’t need to know what to do, we might become more willing to just allow ourselves to know.
Perhaps we – as a species – have reached that threshold… that place/time that now requires we live from what we have learned rather than simply pat ourselves on the back for having learned it. The intensity and scale of our current state of evolution calls out for us to embrace the next layer of ‘daring’ that it demands of us.
BTW, this conversation will not offer you strategies, tips or techniques. No loss… since nothing we have already known will make any difference. Such is The Call of a new adventure!
Yet another mind blowing interview I’ll definitely be re-listening to!
This was the first time I sensed, without a shadow of a doubt, Dean’s expansion. I can feel this is the most ‘authentic’ version of himself I’ve ever had the pleasure of experiencing! he’s holding space, never pulling back or getting lost in himself. It is such a beautiful thing to witness….and, I’m looking forward to the MORE that’s inevitably coming!
As for the rest — I had so much fun listening to this! I’m left feeling invigorated and even more certain of my uncertainty! It’s been a long time I’ve been quite comfortable in not knowing…and staying the course until something presents itself that resonates. It is my way of living breath to breath. Letting go of the illusion of control over some presupposed future, and increasingly letting go of historical conditioning that ensures mindless replication of the status quo.
Choosing to trust: my world is one of abundance (this is a work in progress for me); I’ve got what it takes to raise a magnificent little being who is deeply curious about his own sense of Self and who knows he is perpetually evolving…who knows he can hold multiple truths as True to him, in the moment, simultaneously. Took me 33 years to grasp that.
Anyway, I am grateful to you both for showing up exactly as you were in the moment and speaking to your truth as it presented itself.
Already looking forward to the next interview!!
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Thank you, Stela, for sharing the moment – much appreciated. I know how easy it has become for one conversation with Dean to lead into the next. I know that our current state of frameworks for living is pressing each and every one of us to expand and explore what presents when we do. As great as the challenges may be, the opportunities to redesign ourselves is equally electric! 🙂