Growing pains

I’ve been living with chaos in my life, off and on, for a lot of years (and I know it is often no easy task). 

As powerful as a WEL-Systems® approach is, and as deeply meaningful as it is to me in the living of my own life, I had become restless about it and who I was becoming.   I care deeply for the people I engage with; and as much as I delight in their accelerated evolution and its impact on my own (it is, after all, a holographic universe), I felt unsettled in it all. 

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life!  My body was in chaos, physically – with aches and pains in places I did not even know existed.  A vibration was moving through my body that left me feeling like I was perpetually about to leap off a precipice… just on the edge of falling over.  Yikes!  That’s not a good way for me to go through my day!

Tears.  Lots and lots of tears – and no idea why.

A huge sense of disconnect from all that I hold dear; as if watching it all from high above my ‘real world’, in some ways recognizing the power of it all and yet, in some way, having no desire to connect with any of it.  It was potent and deeply meaningful and yet, in some way, it had lost its meaning for me, personally.

Today, I was reminded of a very simple – and, for me, ESSENTIAL – part of who I am.  Not of what I do or what I know, but of who I AM.  

I re-discovered what brought the greatest joy into my life… to gather with people in conversation.  To explore and experience and discover; to LIVE those discoveries… and find out what else they lead to;  and lovingly, openly and easily share all of it with others who have an interest.

Engage with others in conversations to discover more of who I am and who I can become.  In so doing. those who gather with me discover more of who they are… and then leave and share that with the people they care about. 

Gather and engage!  Learn it – Live it – Love it – Share it!  (LLLS) It’s really that simple. 

Somewhere along the way, I got lost in the models of how others were doing/had done it.  I got carried away by the current of programs, exams and certifications.  I became numb to my own model of the world and found myself drifting along in the model of ‘how business should develop’ or ‘how a business should behave’.  This morning,  I remembered:  I am not a business, I AM… and so is everyone else.

I am excited about gathering with women in groups, talking… and discovering and becoming… and when we leave that group, sharing who we’ve become with others.  In that moment, we already have become the greatest invitation to our own evolution by decloaking and allowing ourselves to be seen.  When we do that, we learn how to see others more clearly and without the filters of expectations and outcomes. 

Wow!  I feel GREAT!  I feel so free and so much more like ME!  Truth be told, I’m not sure that much will look different on the outside – and it feels so much more alive on the inside!

I now understand so much more why Emerging Futures and Women Gathering is so important to me : they are about LLLS.  They are about coming together, knowing that our presence in the conversation is what is most potent; about recognizing that if we don’t learn, we don’t grow; and if we don’t grow, we can’t become more than we already are – and there is just so much more to us than what we’ve already found!

We are most enlivened by what we connect with… what we inhale and make part of who we are, in tissue, in our physical world.  We are most enlivened by what we love.

I LOVE this way of being!  For me, WEL-Systems is not about models or programs or certifications – it’s a way of being.  It’s my life, from one breath to the next; from one day to the next; and from one intention to the next.  I know that when others have been touched by this perspective, their lives have changed – rapidly, profoundly and generatively.   So profound and intense have the changes been that for many, they no longer even remember who they were before they began that journey of discovery.  And yet, it is in the cells of their very being: they can no longer be otherwise and who they now are touches and influences all who engage with them.

I now know my journey more clearly and powerfully.  I can see the road ahead of me and am eager to move down its path of sun, fog and storm clouds.  I AM all of it and I am willing to share it all with anyone who has the desire to discover.

Evolution by Intention is how I remind myself that it is about LLLS.  It is my way of heading in a direction that I believe can and will change my life and the lives of all who travel with me.  I also know that as those others move on and off the path that I’m on, they can not do other than to share with those in their life all that they have become.  It is not about knowledge – it is about essence of being.

I am so grateful for my life.  I am also so grateful to be so loved.