Today, I left Facebook.
Can’t even remember how long I’ve been on Facebook – it has become such a habit of body and mind.
When bored, I would flip through postings for pictures of my family members; updates on Gaia’s latest global messages; or something funny or inspirational to propel me through my day. And those are but a few of the reasons for my visits.
It was a way of allowing me a sense of connection to the many women who have passed through my life – amazing, smart, vulnerable, resourceful, compassionate and funny women whose destinies remain to shape and transform their worlds! It brings me joy to bear witness to their emergence through their creations.
But staying on Facebook makes it easy for me to distract myself; to fill the Spaces that open up in my life with the things of yesterday; with the things outside of me that are not me; the things that can exist safely at arm’s length. Facebook allows me to audit my life rather than dive into it and see where it goes.
I am retired – not dead. For those who know me, it is clear that I always have something to say about just about everything! Facebook allowed me to skimp on myself; to revert to a sound-byte life rather than have to actually pause… face into… and claim what moved inside me. Allowed me to take the easy path of clicking a button rather than taking the longer road of having to actually articulate – to myself and then, potentially, to anyone else who was interested – what had captured my imagination about my life, my world, my reality.
In a recent conversation with one of my sons, I was sharing with him an experience with my Mom who is now in the advancing stages of dementia. Her ability to speak and enthusiasm for doing so is ever-present. Her ability to ‘make sense’ when she speaks is long-gone. In the ‘biz, it’s referred to as ‘word salad’. So, my Mom is very clear on what she is saying – as she points to her ring and calls it a shoe – and for those who are listening, not quite a simple task. At one point, my son chuckled and said: “Now, Mom, you know what it’s like when other people are listening to you talk!”. We had a good laugh since there may be great truth to what he says! (I take his shared perspective with the affection and good humour with which it was intended, as a longtime joke in our family about my strange view of the world.)
I am not interested in living a sound-byte life. Nor am I interested in the need or expectation that I should compress my thoughts into an executive summary of what is tolerable to and manageable for another. Many years ago, I recognized that if/when I am willing to create the Space/Time to listen… to simply be present and not interfere… the ultimate outcome is intelligence expressed and intelligence heard. Sometimes, the pauses need to be long so that the truth can emerge and find its place in the moment. At this time in my life, such is the choice I make for myself.
So, thank you and warmest of wishes to all with whom I have shared space and time on Facebook! I wish you all the very best as you continue to share your lives with others. As for me? I’ll be right here…. on my blog…. when the Spirit moves me to reveal to the outside what presses so powerfully up against the edges of some acceptable norm inside me. Any and all things that matter to me will (increasingly) be found right here. If you want to know when I post something, sign up on this page and you’ll get an email when something new shows up. Ah yes… the joys of technology.
One last thought: what you’ll find in my blogs are thoughts on the things that are important to me about the world and my movement through it. These are:
* climate change as a metaphor for the outcomes of our collective consciousness
* transhumanism and the unfolding of our potential in our humanity
* evolution of consciousness and its implications for creation and manifestation
If these are of interest to you, too, I’ll look forward to being in your world and having you in mine!
Breathing is good…..