Yesterday, was a really lovely day! In my cozy sanctuary, my Ohana gathered to be in the good company of each other. My always-funny, sometimes-outrageous and ever-loving sons; their wisely-chosen and equally-compelling partners; and long-time, close friends gathered for good food, great conversation and side-splitting stories of long-ago mishaps and adventures!
It was such a joy for me to have that day unfold, both in its preparation and expression, and in the memories that now have been given life. And as is often the case for me, one thought leads to another…. very often, totally, seemingly disconnected and disparate…. and yet, in some way, tethered to each other. I found myself wandering through previous blogposts, looking for what might have been offered in December of a previous year; wondering what aspect of life might have occupied my mind, at that time. What I found was one blogpost from December 27, 2006; and from that post, the following captured my moment:
“We often associate the notion of competence with a combination of knowledge and experience. It may be that cellular competence is what we call wisdom – and wisdom is a process of experience, with experience being the domain of the body. Cellular expression, in flow. Nonetheless, it continues to have the flavor of the past, with competence in some way connected to having X, Y or Z’d and thus knowing that one can X, Y or Z again, with a likely positive outcome.
Cellular confidence is different. There is no knowledge. Nor is there experience. Its essence is not of the past but of what might come to be. Its underlying presupposition is that which might become. Cellular confidence is a state of being that welcomes and embraces the unknown. It is an expression that recognizes that an emerging future unfolds – it is not planned, anticipated or even created. It just arrives, and we get to meet it as it appears. It is in those moments that we each become our own greatest surprise, to ourselves.
Cellular confidence – a willingness to invite and allow. A willingness to let go and trust that no matter how bizarre it may seem in the moment (usually when compared to history or expectations), its presence is pure genius and exactly what is required to accelerate my own evolution. Seems to me that I would have to trust the harmless nature of what would flow at least as deeply as I trust my own harmless nature. Perhaps that is the greatest challenge of all.
Who must we know ourselves to be in order to let go and, in doing so, create the Space for what might become? How do we accelerate access to (willingness) and capacity for (ability) cellular confidence? And what might our world become in the moment of our having succeeded?”
It is a reminder to me that it is all, already, within. There is no seeking required; no effort demanded; no struggle that must, first, be the proof of my/our worthiness – there is only the willingness and ability to trust deeply, unquestionably and with the ruthless and boundless commitment that can only come from the innate truth of already ‘being’ that which we are told we must desperately seek in order to be whole.
With this thought, I send you warmest wishes for whatever and however you celebrate the moment of your own remembering. Whatever you call it; however you define it and defend it, the living godforce in me bows in acknowledgement of the living godforce in you… and wishes you many deep belly laughs and heartwarming interconnections as you shape the reality of your existence.
Go forward into 2016, trusting that you already know… and ARE… that which has for too long, been forgotten and abandoned. It is never too late to reclaim your Self.
Breathing is good….