I’m feeling more ‘prickly’ than usual, today. Not quite sure what that’s all about AND my body is telling me to pay close attention to what is now in flow.
My world has been stirred up by the recent gathering of women at the Women Awakening event; by recent blog entries from Anita, and Amy and Marie ; and by my subsequent posting to the Women Gathering area.
Through all of these experiences, I have witnessed the immense potential that women carry, and the degree to which that potential is watered down and diluted, sandbagged with the responsibilities of life so that it becomes a trickle, or corked completely.
Through the Women Awakening experience, I witnessed yet again the tears that flow when a woman reconnects with an essential truth about herself. In a room of 17 women, none was without tears. It makes me wonder: what makes it possible for us to keep telling ourselves that what we’re doing… how we’re moving through the world in such a way that allows this massive disconnect to occur… is a good thing????
Each of these experiences – and each of these women – is a reflection of my own intense state of being. I am so mindful, as I move forward in the radio campaign across the US and Canada, that it is imperative to penetrate the veneer of ‘all’s well’. As one woman put it (and I happen to agree) ‘Fully Alive is the owner’s manual to a very successful life!’ I know she’s right. Am I no longer willing to pretend otherwise.
Maybe that makes me arrogant. Maybe it makes me pushy. But one thing I know for sure: it still makes me right. I am growing weary of the lets-talk-forever-about-change conversations that don’t ever come to the ENGAGE moment. I am losing interest in taking forever to get to the part where we just do it and then, whatever happens, we do it again and weave our way through it. It’s like hiking or climbing or shopping! First you go one place (one foot, one hand hold, one store, etc.) and then you go to the next – but you can’t ever get anywere without that first place.
Yes, it can be unnerving. Yes, it can cause the heart to beat faster and the palms to sweat. But then, life does that.
It’s not so much that it’s back, it’s more that it has never left. Urgency. Intensity. There is indeed, a tension required for creation and manifestation. I can tell from the state of my body that I’m on the edge of something… yet again. I am feeling great pressure in my body to finish the ‘Emerging Futures’ book. At this moment in my own evolution, it really does say it all. And I know once it’s said, there will be more.
So, to all those wonderfully nervous, fearful, tense, annoyed, agitated, restless, uncertain, speechless, haunting, hungry women….THANK YOU! Thank you for choosing to NOT take drugs to stop your body from vibrating. Thank you for being unwilling to drink yourself into oblivion or eat yourself to death to calm your body. Thank for being unwilling to numb yourself out by pretending that the only thing that really matters is everyone and everything else! Thank you for showing up in my life. And, most of all, thank you for being an expression of my consciousness in a way that I can notice my own urgency and intensity. It really is time for ME to get on with it!
Breathing is good…
Wow reading this is surely a reflection of how I have been feeling and am especially feeling since early this morning.
My body yelled, Get Out Of Bed early this morning and I did and because I honoured what my body was urging me to do, my life has changed.
so much has gone on for me in the past three and a half hours it’s unreal. My updates on my web site will be do’in
the dance real soon.
Hugs,
Amy