Maybe that’s as good a way as any to describe what an Emerging Future looks/feels like : I get to change my mind. I get to change my mind often and without hesitation and explanation. I get to step into a thought and in doing so, find another just over that edge and follow it, instead. I get to live fully, moment to moment, and have that living reflected in my choices – and in the quality of my life.
This new blog location is me, changing my mind. Trying something because it feels right to try it, and then stopping it because it feels right to stop – both of these are part of the process. It took me a long time to get past that one. The one where changing my mind calls up those inner conversations about my capacity for commitment; my ability to exercise discipline and will power to ‘stay the course’; the length of my attention span and all the derogatory things that we could say about it! And those were just the things going on inside myself!
I’m older now and not quite as maleable as I once was. I am aware that doing something just because I said I would, despite the entry of new information to the contrary, is not the sign of a high IQ. Yes, I understand that it makes me unpredictable in some ways – and I wonder what made us think that predictable should garner such favour and high praise? I suppose if control were high on my list of preferred outcomes, I might agree. However, it’s not – so I don’t.
I’ll likely change my mind a lot in the next two years. Intention 2009 is looming large on the horizon and I’m very clear on the direction that I’m moving in. Having said that, I am not wedded to how I do that. No doubt, over the next 24 months, lots of things will ebb and flow; many opportunities will present that I will step into and likely just as quickly either move through or step out of. And through it all, I will continue to move in the direction of my destination.
I wonder how many women get stuck on that one? I wonder how much harder it is for women to do what ‘feels’ right for them, when doing so has an impact on loved ones? It is perhaps one of the reasons why love is so easily lost to obligation and resentment.
I’m looking forward to trusting myself and discovering what magic lies ahead! Given all the people I know who are travelling this road with me, I know that I am in the best of company!
Breathing is good…..
i decided to purchase a new bed. at the same time my current bed is working, not as well as i would like, but still okay. i tried a cheap model, took it back, next step up, took it back, two more steps up, now i am thinking, do i want to be in even more debt at this point?, can i do with what i have until the house sells and i pay off the current bill with this company? another 600 was okay, even 800 but now 1200? what is wrong with me? i am worth 1200, lots more really, one-third monthly salary, but i have so much debt now, most will go when the house sells, but i have to pay for things now. help.
well, i went for it!!! i deserve a good night’s sleep, no one would believe the beds i have endured all my life. i will keep this web site in my favorites.