I like being at this place in my life. I no longer seek permission, full in the realization that I already am that permission, for myself. Finally, on the cusp of the curve of final release, I am without filters.
Although often highly selective about doing so, I find myself very fortunate to continue to be invited into the lives of the amazing (and often much younger) women who are so deeply committed to their own evolution, for its own sake. I’m up for that! Every conversation with them awakens a discovery within… and I never tire of those delights! We wander around in new ideas. We wonder about how else something might (or might not) create itself. And we dare to simply have that be enough. Wow… like finding out that you’ve been invited to a nutritious, delicious buffet of all your favourites and none of it will land on your hips!
My recent exchange with just one such compelling woman is below. It was a reminder to me how what once was, is no longer. Their is freedom in no longer being tethered – and even greater freedom in knowing that I am not! Her insights provoked my own.
I love these wee-hours-of-the-night ramblings. They have produced some of my most outrageous – and prolific! – musings as I have sought to more profoundly awaken to mySelf. So…. good on ya! I am always open to receiving whatever you might discover.Yup – I agree with you, 100%. Everything that you say makes great and perfect sense to me and I encourage you to trust that and allow it to lead. As you already know, I trust that you are The One who knows best what is most meaningful to/for you, as you seek to become more authentically your Self… wherever and however you may choose to engage.As you already know, I am now quite long in the tooth! As I enter my 70th year, I am mindful of the degree to which I live my Life out loud and in the moment. With few filters remaining, there is a direct link from my inner cues to my mouth…. and out it comes! I can appreciate that is not always welcomed or valued by any and all and – in truth for me – I know of no other way to live. I spent so many years allowing mySelf to express only when doing so mapped to what I believed were someone else’s expectations and judgements. So many years editing and filtering and analyzing and assessing… pondering the future outcomes and how they would make me appear in the eyes of others. So many years second-guessing and exercising caution, such that I expressed only in the presence of those I could trust… felt safe that… they would not confront me, or challenge me or be annoyed or upset by me. For so long, I thought that if someone took issue with what I had to say it was because I was wrong; and if they did not, it was because I was right. Turns out none of that was ever true. What was true was how long I stayed locked in the box of my own making, believing it to be the construction of others.I’m older now… and hopefully, a little wiser! When I speak, I do so because it calls to me to do so. Not for any particular outcome – but just because. I invite and allow others to express freely and openly that which is meaningful to/for them; and I allow mySelf the same freedom. Took ME a long time to figure all that out. I trust that you are already well on your way to figuring that out for yourSelf.You have much to say – just because it is there to be said. In your own way and in your own time. I trust and support that – and YOU – in all ways.
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