Woke up this morning to another beautiful day at the Chateau Montebello. Windows open, breeze blowing through the room, smell of the water….life is good!
I greatly appreciated the opportunity to spend time with three strong and courageous women in what was, for me, a compelling and deeply meaningful ‘pull’ for discovery of some kind. Add to that, that I was hoarse from laughing and… well…. it just doesn’t get any better than that! I’ve been smiling all day.
Some additional thoughts have entered my awareness and I share them in the event they might be meaningful in some way. I do appreciate that the conversation of yesterday which, I know, only lives above the Choice Point… as an exploration of what lives THERE…. can be difficult to ‘pin down’ in an E/B/S/BVA kind of world. We are so trapped in our need to ‘make sense’ of any and all things by seeking ‘evidence’ in a material world. The challenging truth is that no matter how much we ‘see’ in matter, there will always be the unseen beyond matter, that makes matter possible. Unless, perhaps, we come to see through new eyes?
What comes to mind, is….
I remember, as a small child, going about living my life. Every day, I had breakfast, went to school, came home, did homework, had supper, watched tv, went to bed… and did it all again the next day. When I ’got sick’, my Mom always knew what to do. If I had challenges at school, my Mom fixed them. And so it went.
What I know now, and did not know then, was that my parents were busily doing THEIR thing (to which I was oblivious), and creating the framework from which would hang the details of my life. I had not a clue that they were the creators of the context from within which my life unfolded. I just was aware of my life and was busy living it.
And in truth, as their lives unfolded, some other(s) was busily creating the context for my parents (employers, friends, fresh memories of WWII, etc.). In truth, they were so busy with their lives, they likely were pretty unaware that the larger context within which their lives were unfolding was actually dictating to them – out of their conscious awareness – what choices could be considered within their realm of existence.
In today’s world, if we do not already ’know’ we strongly suspect that beyond the obvious – i.e. the named political parties and identified candidates for whom we may choose to vote – there is a much larger, likely global context within which what we perceive as reality is being shaped and reshaped. Again, a higher order context, likely out of our frame of reference, and from which our lives are nonetheless unfolding.
In addition to those ’truths’, I know there is also a higher-order context (above the Choice Point) of ME that is setting the framework from which my life choices are emerging; as I move through space/time in this physical world. What seems so imperative to me in any given moment is really nothing more than one of the discoveries intended for my evolution – like a popcorn trail of insights – put there by that higher-order expression of my own Being. To be sure, I have learned over time that if I don’t ‘get it’ in this moment, it will no doubt present again!
THAT Being… that higher-order expression that lives beyond my world of name-able, structure-able ‘reality’, is what I am seeking to know: mindfully, consciously, and completely. My journey is its discovery. All else matters so little to me.
Getting hoarse from laughing is just about the best way to spend a day in my world too. I said to Deb yesterday that my laugh lines have deepened significantly in the 17 years that she has been in my life. Such a joy. I am starting to wonder if sweet laughter is a portal into the void.
I hear you about “THAT Being… that higher-order expression that lives beyond my world of name-able, structure-able ‘reality’, is what I am seeking to know”. This too is where I am focusing my attention. It is a beautiful place to stand where so much that used to seem to require my life’s attention has almost disappeared. Replaced by deafening spring bird song, the sticky unfolding of new leaves, big puffy clouds framing giant green mountains and a sense of being held by ME in the vast sea of potential.
Thank you for sharing, lovely way to start my day.
Hi Deb, I welcome and appreciate your making the time to share your thoughts. In some ways, this is a strange place to be. In most ways, I cannot imagine it otherwise. There are times when I think back to a simpler time; a time when the existing structures shaped by others were sufficient for my day-to-day expressions. That is no longer true and as such, demands far more of me than the simplicity of having today unfold like yesterday; and today, the template for tomorrow.
This particular search is at once, inexplicable and totally gratifying. Perhaps I will continue to allow that to guide me.
Nice to know we travel together!