This time next week, I will have been on the Big Island of Hawaii for 24 hours. The last time I was there (September 2006), I missed the earthquake by three weeks. However, during my entire stay, I could feel the earth move under my feet; and I could hear its sound. As much as I knew that 2007 was not my time to be in Hawaii, I know that April 2008, is.
Kilauea is introducing new expressions into the day. As much as this volcano is now attracting many to the Island to watch, my desire to be there is different. Recognizing that it is a holographic universe, I am mindful of my desire to be on the Big Island to ‘know’ this expression of intensity as one of my own. For whatever reason, the Big Island has always felt like ‘home’ – a unique experience for me as I’ve never really felt home to be anywhere in particular. But on the Big Island, something inside me was awakened (more than 15 years ago) and I’ve never gone back to sleep.
It is on the Big Island of Hawaii that I had my first experience of being profoundly connected to the elements. On this small dot of land in the middle of the Pacific Ocean… 2500 miles from anywhere!… something inside me came to life. Although initially less than enthused by my Island experience, my initial indifference quickly turned into a panicked need to return. It was as if returning to the Big Island was not a nice thing, or a fun thing to do – but an essential thing to do. The ‘pull’ was not one of the intellect but one of the body. I couldn’t sleep, was profoundly distracted from the day-to-day events of my life, and turned myself inside-out to get back there ASAP! That was 15 years ago and I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve been back.
For me, it really does feel like going back to where I belong.
From the very first moment that this Mauna Lani Experience began to form itself, it has alway been about connection – to the elements, to each other and to Self. It has also been about coming home – to Self and to the elements; and to recognizing that in all others, I can find mySelf. Sometimes, our connection to the elements of Earth, Water, Fire, Air and I’O (as they each represent some aspect of ourselves and the whole of what we are) allows us to know some part of us that cannot be known – or touched! – through logic, reason and habit. And in this Spirit of discovery, I know that there is still much of me that I have not yet met.
I will be in the best of company! Six more sleeps we’ll be on our way! And one thing I know for sure: there will be intensity and there will be acceleration for us all. The powerful forces that are allowing Kilauea to breathe more deeply are the same ones that will expand my own capacity to breathe life into my connection to being here.
It is all unfolding exactly as it should.
Breathing is good…..
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